The Suntanned Truth

Sooo no, this post isn't about sun rays or SPF (although I could stand to wear more sunblock in the summer LOL) but instead its about good ole truth... Or so I'd like to think-- allow me to carry on (smile)

I've always wondered whether or not the saying "what's done in the dark, comes to the light" is actually true. I am not doubting that it happens, BUT I will admit-- like most people, I have some skeletons in my closet that I don't plan on letting anyone in on.

Over my years, my tendency to lie or "not reveal the whole truth" has lessened in frequency but increased in terms of the magnitude of the situation. For example, I used to lie to my mother about what time I came into the house or whether or not I finished cleaning my room, but fibbing about those types of things has stopped. Now, my lies are mostly to protect someone's feelings-- which is good in theory, but not in reality.

Anywhoo... The capacity in which someone can withhold truth absolutely scares me. I've found that humans withhold truth to avoid pain, gain success or to harm others. And considering I am a proud conspiracist, I think there a lot of truths withheld from the public. Yup, definitely frightens me LOL.

The only thing that allows me to accept this realization is the lesson learned from each situation. The truths I haven't told anyone about, are the very things that I know have made me a better person. Like they say, *you live and you learn*.

Now, I do I try to watch the truths I withhold. I've had situations in the past where my lies surfaced and they didn't turn out pretty or weren't even worth it. At the time, I realized the person's feelings were at stake, but I never realized how much things would change as a result of my inconsideration.

Yet, with smaller instances, sometimes its hard for me to tell the complete truth because I really care about a person's feelings (there goes me thinking more with my heart than mind habit *slaps forehead*). Again, this is something else I am working on (refer to my post about "flaws" to read other things I have come to terms with about myself-- LOL).

So-- if some truths don't come to light, it somewhat justifies searching for/seeking them in some instances. I mean in terms of relationships, I'm not big on snooping, considering there is always the consequence of finding out something that you really didn't want to know, but I do know that in some situations, there would be no other way to find things out if you do not look for them. However, in less emotionally-charged situations, challenging truth is apart of educating yourself.

The truth shall set you free...

Ttfn,
K
xoxo